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Drunken envy and self-loathing in Dundee

I went to Dundee on the train yesterday (Thursday).  I’ve now been to every major / medium sized city in the United Kingdom.  I drank way too much and I still have a hangover (and I don’t usually even get … Continue reading

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Missing my soulmate terribly and wishing that I could take back the pain and wasted years that I caused her

If I’m perfectly honest, I have not been right since my ex-wife and I divorced 7 years ago.  I know she couldn’t stay with me because of my transition and I know that my transition was a terrible blow to … Continue reading

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My cat Cleo passed away on Monday

The bad news I received from S (my ex-wife) on Monday evening was her letting me know that our cat Cleo passed away due to liver failure.  She was 14 years old and we got her back in 2005, right … Continue reading

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Nowhere to call ‘home’

I wish I could go back to either the version of the United Kingdom I left in 2004 or the version of the United States I lived in from 2004 to 2013, when I was still married. to my soulmate. … Continue reading

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A surprise email from S

I never expected to hear from S (my ex-wife) again, but she rep;lied to an email I sent her the same day, where I told her I missed her. I thought she would’ve been upset by it as she always … Continue reading

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Tomorrow is going to be a very difficult day for me (December 13th)

I’m going to write about this now, because tomorrow I plan to get very drunk. Tomorrow is December 13th, which is exactly 15 years since I first met S, my ex-wife, best friend, my only true love and my soulmate … Continue reading

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An update (housing, mental health)

I’ve been back and forth between here and my mum’s over the past few days.  I found a flat and I’ve put in the application and paid the application fee.  They said it would take 1-2 weeks before I hear … Continue reading

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