Tag Archives: spinal stenosis

Back on the saddle again

My friend has kindly let me borrow her bike, so I ventured out on it twice yesterday, sticking to the nearby vicinity so as to get accustomed to it and to cycling here, which is quite a different experience from … Continue reading

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I really do want to die

TRIGGER WARNING: suicide, suicidal ideation I’ve had a really bad few days, all things considered. My brain feels so scattered that I don’t know where to begin, but I honestly want to die. I’m tormented by the past and present … Continue reading

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Chronic pain

Among the things I can no longer live with, chronic pain is right up there with my mental health issues, dysphoria and personal failures. I’ve had lumbar spinal stenosis since my mid 20’s, but it’s got worse and it’s got … Continue reading

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Time to leave (received yet more bad news)

I haven’t updated this blog in a while because honestly, I haven’t had the energy and I feel like I’m talking to myself and wasting bandwidth.  All I seem to do is repeat the same bullshit anyway and many of … Continue reading

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The meeting with my care manager yesterday just left me with more stress.  Most of the hour was spent discussing my health insurance, which has turned into somewhat of a disaster since being switched from Medicaid to Medicare.  My care … Continue reading

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This is like old age come early

I have said this a million times, but I honestly feel that having a friend or two here in Rochester or even a boyfriend would make an enormous difference in my life. The loneliness and social isolation that I’ve experienced … Continue reading

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This body must be some sort of punishment or practical joke…

I decided to text my ‘reasonable’ roommate about the issue with the extroverted roommate’s boyfriend.  I didn’t want to get her involved, but I can’t talk to the extroverted roommate.  I know this is either going to backfire on me … Continue reading

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