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Ugly in North Wales

I didn’t have a good day at all yesterday.  K needed some space, so I rook my bike and took the train to North Wales thinking that I’d find some nice scenery and that I’d be able to get away … Continue reading

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Greetings from the scrapheap (being long-term unemployed and unemployable)

One of the reasons for wanting to die that I listed yesterday is ‘long-term unemployment’.  Granted, it’s not in the top 5, but it’s a valid and legitimate reason for wanting out and many suicides have been attributed to long-term … Continue reading

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My many (justifiable) reasons for wanting to die

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, alcoholism People don’t seem to understand that I genuinely do want to die.  There are multiple reasons for this and some of those reasons would be enough on their own to justify suicide.  In case you don’t … Continue reading

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Update from the Netherlands (pondering my future and dreading next week’s heatwave)

There’s a heatwave heading for north west Europe next week and I’m dreading it.  Daytime temperatures are forecast to hit the mid 30’s, which is as hot as the ‘summer from hell’ that I went through in Rochester New York … Continue reading

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Back on the saddle again

My friend has kindly let me borrow her bike, so I ventured out on it twice yesterday, sticking to the nearby vicinity so as to get accustomed to it and to cycling here, which is quite a different experience from … Continue reading

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I really do want to die

TRIGGER WARNING: suicide, suicidal ideation I’ve had a really bad few days, all things considered. My brain feels so scattered that I don’t know where to begin, but I honestly want to die. I’m tormented by the past and present … Continue reading

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Chronic pain

Among the things I can no longer live with, chronic pain is right up there with my mental health issues, dysphoria and personal failures. I’ve had lumbar spinal stenosis since my mid 20’s, but it’s got worse and it’s got … Continue reading

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