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I still have to leave Rochester and the United States, regardless

Despite the fact that moving back to the UK is somewhat of an unknown and I don’t know if I’ll get any ind of support, I still have to leave.  The decision has been largely taken out of my hands … Continue reading

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Another meltdown…

One of the cats belonging to the landlord went missing this morning.  The cat showed up, but I’ve embarrassed myself yet again after snapping at my roommate because my warped brain made me think that she was blaming me (perhaps … Continue reading

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When reality creeps into your nightmares….

The worst nightmares that I have don’t involve monsters or ghosts or anything else that would be considered conventionally frightening.  My worst nightmares are either in the form of dream flashbacks or what I call ‘flashforwards’.   I don’t know if … Continue reading

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I don’t know where I belong (but I know where I truly don’t belong)

I apologize in advance for sounding like a stuck / broken record, but this is how my mind works, tormenting me with thoughts that I cannot distract myself from. I don’t even think I managed 2 hours worth of sleep. … Continue reading

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Another ‘bomb’ from Rochester has been dropped on me….

I swear, I’m not inventing any of this…. My care manager replied to the email I sent him regarding my need to find a new place to live before the end of May.  He said he’d look into supportive housing … Continue reading

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Burned out

I’m having a very difficult time coping with everything right now, especially as the depressing reality of missing my flight and losing almost $1,000 continues to hit me in waves.  On top of that, I’m supposed to be moving, but … Continue reading

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And it just gets worse….

I didn’t sleep much last night because my mind won’t stop racing.  I don’t know what to do anymore and I’m in dire need of some sort of guidance, which is not forthcoming.  I can’t meet with my care manager … Continue reading

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