Tag Archives: suicidal thoughts

A possible way out

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, drugs Contrary to what people like to assume about me, I really do want to die and have done for many years.  People like to assume that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, but … Continue reading

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Feeling very hopeless and scared

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, suicidal ideation  I knew that returning to England would be a huge mistake.  I’ve only been here just over a week and already I’m feeling very hopeless and scared.  It’s just too populated here and not only … Continue reading

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I’ve been feeling very suicidal (and no, I don’t want to be saved or pitied)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide Here I am, screaming into the void again, just like in the movie Alien.  The monsters aren’t enormous killer creatures with acid for blood, but the monsters in my head….. Before I go any further, I don’t want to … Continue reading

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Unsolicited advice (when there is no help or when treatment hasn’t worked)

All too often, I’ve seen people dish out unsolicited advice to those suffering from mental health problems and loneliness, usually along the lines of “Seek professional help” or “Call the suicide hotline number” or “Check yourself into hospital”.  While this may be appropriate advice to … Continue reading

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I am completely alone in all this

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide   Why do people expect me to live a life that they themselves would be unable to live?  This includes my mother and former friends. In my very much completed suicide note, I have listed 17 legitimate … Continue reading

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‘Obsessive’ envy of others is making me feel extremely depressed and suicidal…

I don’t know if I have OCD or not, but I do suffer from extremely obsessive and intrusive thoughts that do not ease up without either self medicating or a drastic change in circumstances (e.g. by running away from the … Continue reading

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Driftwood

*** TRIGGER WARNING *** Even though I don’t always notice it, my depression has been getting worse for the past few days.  It’s always there, but there are times when it becomes extremely crushing, now being one of those times.  … Continue reading

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