Tag Archives: suicidal thoughts

I’ve been feeling very suicidal (and no, I don’t want to be saved or pitied)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide Here I am, screaming into the void again, just like in the movie Alien.  The monsters aren’t enormous killer creatures with acid for blood, but the monsters in my head….. Before I go any further, I don’t want to … Continue reading

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Unsolicited advice (when there is no help or when treatment hasn’t worked)

All too often, I’ve seen people dish out unsolicited advice to those suffering from mental health problems and loneliness, usually along the lines of “Seek professional help” or “Call the suicide hotline number” or “Check yourself into hospital”.  While this may be appropriate advice to … Continue reading

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I am completely alone in all this

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide   Why do people expect me to live a life that they themselves would be unable to live?  This includes my mother and former friends. In my very much completed suicide note, I have listed 17 legitimate … Continue reading

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‘Obsessive’ envy of others is making me feel extremely depressed and suicidal…

I don’t know if I have OCD or not, but I do suffer from extremely obsessive and intrusive thoughts that do not ease up without either self medicating or a drastic change in circumstances (e.g. by running away from the … Continue reading

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Driftwood

*** TRIGGER WARNING *** Even though I don’t always notice it, my depression has been getting worse for the past few days.  It’s always there, but there are times when it becomes extremely crushing, now being one of those times.  … Continue reading

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Another bad night (loneliness, insomnia, suicidal thoughts)

** TRIGGER WARNING ** I’m not seeking pity I’m not seeking sympathy I’m not seeking attention This is not suicide threat I don’t want to slip into the habit of expressing too much in the way of suicidal ideation on … Continue reading

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