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There is no help for many of us (so quit trying to save us)

Until we can find a cure for all serious mental illnesses and until we can help people overcome shitty life circumstances, suicide is here to stay. Why don’t people understand that for some of us, death is preferable to continuing … Continue reading

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What a waste (back from Scotland)

I got back late yesterday evening from Edinburgh, which is where I was staying since Tuesday. The whole thing was a complete waste of time and money, as I didn’t have the guts to do what I wanted to do. … Continue reading

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Utterly disappointed in myself

I have to return to Grantham later today, where I will have to face my mother at some point.  I’m very disappointed in myself, as I have not been able to do much while I’ve been away over the last … Continue reading

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I really do want to die

TRIGGER WARNING: suicide, suicidal ideation I’ve had a really bad few days, all things considered. My brain feels so scattered that I don’t know where to begin, but I honestly want to die. I’m tormented by the past and present … Continue reading

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Weekends are becoming increasingly unbearable

It’s actually harder to go out here than it was in Rochester at weekends, as much as I hate to admit that.  There seems to be a higher percentage of families with children living here and these are the last … Continue reading

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Why can’t people just leave me alone?

I made a mistake today….I went out. An abandoned railway trail in the countryside is the last place I expected to encounter more harassment, but it happened.  A group of 3-4 teenage girls had a good laugh as I cycled … Continue reading

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I don’t want people as ‘friends’ (adult friendships are expendable)

I know I sound like a broken / stuck record by saying this, but I don’t even want friends anymore. All people do is cause me pain and hurt me, even if that wasn’t their intention. People lie and trick … Continue reading

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