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Ugly in the Granite City

Winston Churchill often referred to his depression as a “black dog”, but I don’t think that metaphor can be used to describe my own depression, which isn’t of this world.  I’m no Winston Churchill either; he had a purpose, which … Continue reading

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I’m ready to quit

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide This is not K’s fault in any way because she did absolutely nothing wrong, but I now regret going up to Liverpool in the first place.  All it’s done is bring me more depression, dysphoria and self-hatred … Continue reading

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You can’t hate me as much as I hate myself

As I didn’t want to burden my mum or her husband with my company anymore, I booked an Airbnb room from Friday until the end of the month. I really didn’t want to, as I’ve had negative experiences with similar … Continue reading

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Feeling completely hopeless and overwhelmed…

After months of communicating back and forth between my friend and I in Stevenage, the ‘move in’ with her friend that was supposed to happen yesterday completely fell through.  They had a falling out and she just stopped responding to … Continue reading

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I’m still dealing with a hangover from my earlier drinking binge, but the hangover is the least of my worries. I had a gut feeling that going into pub on my own to watch England play Croatia in the World … Continue reading

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Final update from Canada…

My train leaves at 10:29 later this morning and just as  I always do, I’m going to arrive at the train station over an hour early just to be safe.  I’ve done most of my packing, but I still need … Continue reading

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No matter how hard I keep trying….

I haven’t posted for a couple of days because I feel like I’m just talking to myself when I write and it’s just become an outlet for my overthinking and my fears.  While it helps to vent, this blog is … Continue reading

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