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I drink because I don’t want to think

This is a special “fuck you” to the so-called “best friend” who reintroduced me to alcohol every time she would call me drunk as fuck.  I don’t actually blame her though, because I’d have to have to be drunk to … Continue reading

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I could never have been a parent anyway

I should’ve given up my dreams of becoming a parent a long time ago.  The experience I’ve had with K’s son has proven to me that I’d have been a colossal failure as a mother.  K is back from her … Continue reading

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From one awful situation and into another (and repeat 1,547,563 times)

Just when I think things can’t possibly get any worse, they do.  I can’t elaborate too much, but K has got herself involved with a very bad person whose flat she was using to ‘work’ out of.  This person has … Continue reading

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Screaming into the void

No fancy words here…I feel really low at the moment and I’m desperate for ‘life’ to be over.  I’m still too cowardly to do what I need to do and I wish I could get hold of drugs to take … Continue reading

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Anhedonia (inability to experience joy or pleasure)

I learnt a new word the other day: anhedonia, which means inability to experience pleasure.   Although anhedonia is a core symptom of depression, it’s a spectrum and I’m at the ass end of the anhedonia spectrum for sure.  All of … Continue reading

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Shiturday

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide I don’t have to explain why I hate weekends, particularly Saturdays.  I did manage to go out to Asda first thing this morning to buy groceries, as there was a gap between the rain showers that have … Continue reading

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Everything is so fucked up (living situation, mental health)

I don’t even know where to begin, because there are so many things so terribly wrong in my pathetic life right now.  I’ve gone from one bad or temporary living situation to another for the past 5 years, but my … Continue reading

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