Tag Archives: there is no help

A colossal waste of time (asking for help on the NHS)

Here lies one of the main reasons why I get tired of people telling me to “seek help”. If you’re one of those people (whether you mean well or not), I suggest you read this, because this is reality for … Continue reading

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Back in Runcorn and feeling completely hopeless

I arrived back in Runcorn around noon, then walked straight to the bedsit. The journey from Grantham to Liverpool South Parkway on East Midlands Railway was fucking awful, as the train was ridiculously overcrowded for most of the journey, especially … Continue reading

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Thoughts of suicide as this terrible decade comes to an end….

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide (obviously)  My mum and her husband will be back from their mini-vacation in Norfolk in a couple of hours, so I thought I’d try to express my thoughts before they arrive.  I have to return to Runcorn … Continue reading

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I’m going back to Scotland

I’ve been trying to refrain from blogging at weekends, as weekends are almost always difficult for me. Last weekend was certainly no exception, but the election results on Friday 13th last week definitely made it worse. I hit the bottle … Continue reading

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Fifty shades of fucked

Even if I could work at the moment, it’s obvious that I’m completely unemployable, as nothing came of any of the jobs I’ve applied for recently or since I returned to the UK last year. Without a job, it’s also … Continue reading

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When I say “There is no help”, I mean it

It should be no surprise when I say that I’m having an extremely difficult time with my living situation, dysphoria and mental health problems.  I don’t know what to do anymore, because I no longer have the money to find … Continue reading

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I can’t live alone, but I can’t live with anyone either (apparently)

My existence has turned even more nightmarish since I returned to England at the end of last month.  Yesterday was probably the worst day I’ve had in a very long time.  To cap it all off, a ‘suicide note’ that … Continue reading

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