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One more week in Scotland & 48 hours of sobriety

Despite my intrusive thoughts and restlessness, I’ve been resisting the urge to drink since Tuesday, so it’s been 48 hours.  Since the school holidays have ended, and the weather looks good tomorrow, I’m going on a long bike ride.  I’m … Continue reading

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My many (justifiable) reasons for wanting to die

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, alcoholism People don’t seem to understand that I genuinely do want to die.  There are multiple reasons for this and some of those reasons would be enough on their own to justify suicide.  In case you don’t … Continue reading

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Staring into the no-deal Brexit abyss (long, mostly emotion-based rant)

I’m really starting to worry incessantly about the approaching Brexit deadline on October 21, 2019.  It was supposed to happen on Match 31st, but the extension has allowed for an extension of my borrowed time and allowed me to spend … Continue reading

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I wish I’d never come back to the United Kingdom (this is not my home anymore)

I truly fucked up when I returned to the United Kingdom last November. It was probably the second biggest mistake of my life, the first being dragging S (my ex-wife) into my hell and wasting 9 years of her life.  … Continue reading

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It just keeps getting worse…

I’m having major problems getting my HRT medication (estrogen) and it’s really starting to worry me.  The pharmacy was unable to obtain my medication because pf a “manufacturer issue” and they can’t even find an alternative brand.  I’m convinced that … Continue reading

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I have to binge drink just to get through the day here

I’ve been in this hellhole known as ‘South Shields aka ‘Grantham-by-the-Sea’ since July 19th and I don’t leave until Friday.  I should never have come to this terrible seaside, family friendly place, but I didn’t know it would be this … Continue reading

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I hate Brexit England (a nation of family friendly fascism)

I no longer see people as human beings anymore; I see them as the source of much of my pain and virtually all of my anxiety.  Envy has completely consumed me and if I had any predisposition to anger or … Continue reading

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