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One more week in Scotland & 48 hours of sobriety

Despite my intrusive thoughts and restlessness, I’ve been resisting the urge to drink since Tuesday, so it’s been 48 hours.  Since the school holidays have ended, and the weather looks good tomorrow, I’m going on a long bike ride.  I’m … Continue reading

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Greetings from the scrapheap (being long-term unemployed and unemployable)

One of the reasons for wanting to die that I listed yesterday is ‘long-term unemployment’.  Granted, it’s not in the top 5, but it’s a valid and legitimate reason for wanting out and many suicides have been attributed to long-term … Continue reading

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My many (justifiable) reasons for wanting to die

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, alcoholism People don’t seem to understand that I genuinely do want to die.  There are multiple reasons for this and some of those reasons would be enough on their own to justify suicide.  In case you don’t … Continue reading

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Staring into the no-deal Brexit abyss (long, mostly emotion-based rant)

I’m really starting to worry incessantly about the approaching Brexit deadline on October 21, 2019.  It was supposed to happen on Match 31st, but the extension has allowed for an extension of my borrowed time and allowed me to spend … Continue reading

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I wish I’d never come back to the United Kingdom (this is not my home anymore)

I truly fucked up when I returned to the United Kingdom last November. It was probably the second biggest mistake of my life, the first being dragging S (my ex-wife) into my hell and wasting 9 years of her life.  … Continue reading

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Drunken envy and self-loathing in Dundee

I went to Dundee on the train yesterday (Thursday).  I’ve now been to every major / medium sized city in the United Kingdom.  I drank way too much and I still have a hangover (and I don’t usually even get … Continue reading

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It just keeps getting worse…

I’m having major problems getting my HRT medication (estrogen) and it’s really starting to worry me.  The pharmacy was unable to obtain my medication because pf a “manufacturer issue” and they can’t even find an alternative brand.  I’m convinced that … Continue reading

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