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The ‘rational’ argument in favour of suicide and assisted dying

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide (obviously) I’m no fan of modern suicide prevention techniques for chronically suicidal people like me, nor am I a fan of ‘the ‘saviour’ SPA (suicide prevention activist) types.  The latter seem only concerned with preventing suicide itself, … Continue reading

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Another highly triggering encounter with my mother (family of origin)

TRIGGER WARNING: Self harm I had a truly awful day yesterday (Tuesday), which culminated in another major fight with my mother.  Once again, she managed to upset me when I went over to her house around lunchtime.  I only went … Continue reading

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Just waiting to die (borrowed time)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, suicidal ideation My existence has descended into little more than a lonely, binge drinking haze.  The bottle is now the only ‘friend’ I have left and the only thing I can trust in this world.  It doesn’t … Continue reading

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Childless, not childfree

I recently tried to connect with people in a childfree group on Facebook, but I soon realized that the label ‘childfree’ doesn’t apply to me and it would be wrong of me to use it. Childfree people are people who … Continue reading

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The toxicity of my envy (and dysphoria too)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, self-harm I have a huge problem with envy of others and I can’t control it. If it’s bad, it causes me to spiral into a depressive, self-destructive episode that can last for days. I have so many … Continue reading

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Reopened wounds, present failure

If you exclude the 3 week period that I had to return to the US to get the rest of my stuff and tie up loose ends, I’ve been here 4 months now.  In that time, I’ve applied for a … Continue reading

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“Trans and proud”? No fucking way

TRIGGER WARNING (internalized transphobia) Before you read any further and judge me for having an unpopular opinion, I have a lot of issues with internalized transphobia and I’ve had many bad experiences with transgender women in the past. The subject … Continue reading

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