Tag Archives: transphobia

Hate didn’t win; my inability to cope with it did

Please keep this in mind.  I’m not strong enough to exist in a world where I’m hated and targeted, on top of my already huge mountain of self-hatred.  I don’t care if you think that I’ve let the haters win; … Continue reading

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Things I’ve learned since being back in the UK

My return to the UK has been nothing short of a colossal failure.  While I wasn’t expecting miracles, I was hoping that I’d find life a bit easier and that I’d be able to make fit in somewhere and that … Continue reading

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Five days with my ex-girlfriend ended in dysphoria and disaster

I just got back to Grantham after spending 5 days with K, my ex-girlfriend in Runcorn.   As I predicted before I left when I had my doubts about going at all, it all ended very badly.  Once again, yours truly … Continue reading

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Unwell

They say that exposure to the things that cause you fear will toughen you, but this doesn’t seem to apply to me. When I go out, I’m in an almost continuous state of panic, unless I self-medicate, which I’ve been … Continue reading

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“Trans and proud”? No fucking way

TRIGGER WARNING (internalized transphobia) Before you read any further and judge me for having an unpopular opinion, I have a lot of issues with internalized transphobia and I’ve had many bad experiences with transgender women in the past. The subject … Continue reading

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Why can’t people just leave me alone?

I made a mistake today….I went out. An abandoned railway trail in the countryside is the last place I expected to encounter more harassment, but it happened.  A group of 3-4 teenage girls had a good laugh as I cycled … Continue reading

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As if I don’t hate myself and my hideous appearance enough (harassed, followed in Newark)

I had a frightening experience in Newark earlier, while on my bike riding between Newark Northgate and Newark Castle stations to catch my connecting train.  It was a white van driver with a company logo of some sort who decided … Continue reading

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