Tag Archives: triggers

When fiction and fictional characters become emotional triggers

When I was young, television shows, moves and books were distractions from how shitty my life was (and still is).  I could watch pretty much anything and enjoy it and I read a lot of books.  But that isn’t the … Continue reading

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Today was okay, but I’m dreading tomorrow (Saturday)

I cycled just over 30 miles this morning, from Grantham to Nottingham along the Grantham Canal and through the villages of Bottesford,  Aslockton and Bingham (the same route as last time).  It took me just over 3 hours, but I … Continue reading

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I’ve been feeling very suicidal (and no, I don’t want to be saved or pitied)

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide Here I am, screaming into the void again, just like in the movie Alien.  The monsters aren’t enormous killer creatures with acid for blood, but the monsters in my head….. Before I go any further, I don’t want to … Continue reading

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Another highly triggering encounter with my mother (family of origin)

TRIGGER WARNING: Self harm I had a truly awful day yesterday (Tuesday), which culminated in another major fight with my mother.  Once again, she managed to upset me when I went over to her house around lunchtime.  I only went … Continue reading

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I’m going to try living with K (my ex) for a while after all

K and I are talking again after the ‘misunderstanding’ from a couple of weeks ago.  She said that we can still try living together for a month to see how it goes.  I’m not thrilled by the idea, mainly because … Continue reading

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Brexit might not happen after all (but I refuse to ‘hope’)

Even though my drinking has been helping me sleep a bit, it hasn’t stopped the nightmares or the intensity of them.  I should try to get more sleep as I’m going to London for the day later to get the … Continue reading

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Fear and envy have made me hateful

I don’t find the subject of envy particularly easy to talk about, but I have no one to discuss it with and I feel no one truly understands why I feel the way that I do. It’s reached the stage … Continue reading

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