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Finally got paid for being ugly

I got an email from my care manager this morning to say that 2 pieces of mail had come for me. One of them was my debit cad from my UK bank that my mum had sent to me, the … Continue reading

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Why the next 12 days will decide my fate…

Including today (Monday), the next 12 days will ultimately decide my fate, which could be as drastic as whether I choose stay here in Rochester or return to the UK for good.  The worst case scenario or further trauma will … Continue reading

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Putting Persephone to work

After not going out at all yesterday, I popped 2 Lorazepam and drank some kratom tea to take the edge off my anxiety, then spent all morning and some of the afternoon out on my bike, Persephone. I went to … Continue reading

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My hopeless housing search (too many obstacles, too much bullshit and too many dead ends)

I had grandiose plans to go out today and attempt cycling again, but my anxiety and depression and the non-stop rain outside have killed those plans. Instead I’m just here in my room, emailing every potential room ad on Craigslist … Continue reading

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An actual update (housing situation, health insurance, anxiety)

I haven’t updated this thing properly since Friday as ended up being out for much of the weekend….. It looks like I might have escaped the imminent threat of homelessness at the end of the month, although I am not … Continue reading

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S(h)ituational despair (time is running out)

The sense of relief that I experienced after that hellish journey soon passed and the grim reality of my situation here in Rochester has sent me spiraling down. I’ve only been sleeping sporadically and I’ve experienced some of the worst … Continue reading

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Back in Rottenchester

I arrived back in Rochester just after 9pm last night, the train being slightly delayed (not that I cared).  I used an Uber cab to get home and it was extremely awkward with the cab driver, especially as I was … Continue reading

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