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Walking alone (and feeling ugly) in the city where “you’ll never walk alone”

As I mentioned in my last blog entry, I went into Liverpool city centre on Friday afternoon on the train, taking my bike with me.  I’d been to Liverpool a few times before when K was living in the city … Continue reading

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This is all too much, too soon

K is back, but things haven’t really improved as far as my mental health problems go.  She’s going away again for a night tomorrow an trusting me to be here for her son.  I think he’s a good kid,, but … Continue reading

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Feeling very hopeless and scared

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, suicidal ideation  I knew that returning to England would be a huge mistake.  I’ve only been here just over a week and already I’m feeling very hopeless and scared.  It’s just too populated here and not only … Continue reading

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Let’s talk about sex (as in my difficulties with it)

While I crave a good relationship, one of the biggest problems for me with being with anyone is the whole ‘sex’ thing.  I’m not a prude at all, but I’ve always had issues with sex, or rather making love.  Along … Continue reading

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Nosedive (Black Mirror episode)

No, I’m not referring to my life over the past 5 years, but an episode from series 3 of Black Mirror that I watched yesterday on Netflix.  I’ve really gotten into Black Mirror, even though some of the episodes are … Continue reading

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My many (justifiable) reasons for wanting to die

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide, alcoholism People don’t seem to understand that I genuinely do want to die.  There are multiple reasons for this and some of those reasons would be enough on their own to justify suicide.  In case you don’t … Continue reading

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I really fucking hate weekends and ‘weekend people’

Another ‘I hate weekends’ blog entry, but it’s true…I really fucking hate weekends and ‘weekend people ‘with a passion.  From Friday evening to Sunday night, it’s much harder for me to go out because the enemy (people) are everywhere.  Saturdays … Continue reading

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