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I drink because I don’t want to think

This is a special “fuck you” to the so-called “best friend” who reintroduced me to alcohol every time she would call me drunk as fuck.  I don’t actually blame her though, because I’d have to have to be drunk to … Continue reading

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If they try to push the dreaded ‘m’ word on me (mindfulness), I’m walking out

I have a mental health assessment tomorrow morning at 8:30.  It’s weird that it’s on a Sunday, but I’m not complaining about that.  K said she’d come with me, but I’m not sure if that’s a good idea, as I … Continue reading

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If I thought that de-transitioning would allow me to fit in and be normal, I would

I’ve had a bit too much to drink and this blog is a place of honesty, so I would just like to say that if I thought that de-transitioning would allow me to fit in and be normal, I would … Continue reading

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Avoiding people is my only goal in life

K has gone away for the night working again and her son has gone to stay with her brother, so the cats and I have the house to ourselves for 24 hours.  I’m not going out today or tomorrow, as … Continue reading

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Ugly in a Roman city (Chester)

Prior to the shit hitting the fan on Friday evening, I went to Chester earlier that day by train and bike.  I hadn’t been to Chester itself since I went on a school field trip there sometimes in the mid … Continue reading

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The transgender trigger / curse

I’ve not really felt any better since my meltdown on Friday, although I’ve not had any more alcohol since then, but I’ve smoked quite a few joints.  Fortunately, K has been away and isn’t back until tomorrow, so I’ve had … Continue reading

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I’m being so blatantly taken advantage of

I had another very terrible day yesterday, which culminated in another meltdown and getting severely drunk.  I’ve not been able to be honest about what’s upsetting me here out of respect for K and her lifestyle choices, but I can … Continue reading

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