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Greetings from the scrapheap (being long-term unemployed and unemployable)

One of the reasons for wanting to die that I listed yesterday is ‘long-term unemployment’.  Granted, it’s not in the top 5, but it’s a valid and legitimate reason for wanting out and many suicides have been attributed to long-term … Continue reading

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Ugly and lonely in Perth, Glasgow and Stirling

I wasn’t planning on returning to this blog for a while.  I’m tired of bearing my soul on here, as I feel like no one is listening and even if they are, it’s unlikely that they understand (or care to … Continue reading

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I wish I’d never come back to the United Kingdom (this is not my home anymore)

I truly fucked up when I returned to the United Kingdom last November. It was probably the second biggest mistake of my life, the first being dragging S (my ex-wife) into my hell and wasting 9 years of her life.  … Continue reading

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The intense loneliness of being marginalised (I just want to die)

I didn’t choose to be different, I don’t want to be different and I don’t like being different.  Those who claim that being different or weird is so great are usually those who had a choice in he matter.  Some … Continue reading

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24 hours & 8 trains later – my journey from Delft (Netherlands) to Falkirk (Scotland)

I left Delft yesterday at 1:30 pm CEST and I arrived in Falkirk at 12:30 pm GMT, so the journey took just over 24 hours to complete and I had to change trains 7 times (including the London Underground) as … Continue reading

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The ‘black dog’ barking at my door

I’m having a difficult time managing my depression.  I know what’s causing it and if you’re one of the 3 people that read my blog, you’ll know what’s causing it without me having to go into too much detail.  All … Continue reading

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Depression and weekend anxiety didn’t stop me from going out cycling

It’s another sweltering hot day here in the Netherlands, but the heatwave is finally disappearing as of tomorrow,  I really don’t like summer at all because of the hot weather, bugs and children everywhere and too many hours of daylight  … Continue reading

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