Tag Archives: UK

If they try to push the dreaded ‘m’ word on me (mindfulness), I’m walking out

I have a mental health assessment tomorrow morning at 8:30.  It’s weird that it’s on a Sunday, but I’m not complaining about that.  K said she’d come with me, but I’m not sure if that’s a good idea, as I … Continue reading

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I totally lost it today

I really lost it today.  I’m not proud of myself, but I reached breaking point with K’s son’s behaviour.   He came back when he was supposed to be at his uncle’s and started harassing me about the whereabouts of his … Continue reading

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I miss my friend; I miss the Netherlands

I spent a month staying with my only remaining friend, S in the Netherlands for a month in June.  Honestly, it was the best month that I’ve had for as long as I can remember.  I usually have difficulty living … Continue reading

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Greetings from the scrapheap (being long-term unemployed and unemployable)

One of the reasons for wanting to die that I listed yesterday is ‘long-term unemployment’.  Granted, it’s not in the top 5, but it’s a valid and legitimate reason for wanting out and many suicides have been attributed to long-term … Continue reading

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Ugly and lonely in Perth, Glasgow and Stirling

I wasn’t planning on returning to this blog for a while.  I’m tired of bearing my soul on here, as I feel like no one is listening and even if they are, it’s unlikely that they understand (or care to … Continue reading

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I wish I’d never come back to the United Kingdom (this is not my home anymore)

I truly fucked up when I returned to the United Kingdom last November. It was probably the second biggest mistake of my life, the first being dragging S (my ex-wife) into my hell and wasting 9 years of her life.  … Continue reading

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The intense loneliness of being marginalised (I just want to die)

I didn’t choose to be different, I don’t want to be different and I don’t like being different.  Those who claim that being different or weird is so great are usually those who had a choice in he matter.  Some … Continue reading

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